In the last two months time, Kaleb and I have found ourselves, ever so slowly, drifting in slightly different directions. Him immersed on the farm- there is enough work here to easily keep a man busy every minute of every day for the rest of his life. It's not only the work load though, the unfinished projects or the land running wild before us, it's so much more than that. What he does here at the house with me and the kids is important. So time must be given.
With Kaleb's time being taken up more and more with farm chores I gradually began taking on more and more roles with the house, the kids, the daily tasks. Finding myself capable and strong, I continued on, eventually coming to a point where Kaleb had all but been excluded. It wasn't just the laundry, the cleaning, discipline and chores, but it became story time, crafts, special events, and even their little moments.
This continued on- him on the farm, me in the house. . . both of us locked in a holding pattern we didn't want or need. Neither intending for it to happen, just busy- life get's that way if you're not careful. From the very beginning of our relationship, all we wanted was to be together. It's the reason he left his job and we moved to this farm. We wanted to do life together. Raise these wilds together. Plan together, dream together- be together.
Somehow, life got in our heads, and we lost that focus, forgot for the briefest of times what we love and who we are. We forgot to see how blessed we are to be able to do this, to live this kind of life where our wilds can roam free, where we have an opportunity to spend our days as a family, a life that we can live and build together.
Thankfully, after God gave us a nice smack upside the head, we were able to see what had been happening, look at it from each others eyes and see what we had been missing. For, you see- I always want to walk the same path as Kaleb. We were meant for this kind of life.
Since then, we've found ourselves again. Both making efforts to combine our activities and tasks. To show the other just how much they are needed and valued. These pictures were taken yesterday- the sun had come out and was warming us thru and thru. With winter fast approaching we needed more firewood- so together the six of us headed out to chop and to work. We took breaks to throw rocks in the pond, and build fishing poles out of sticks and grass. We laughed and Kaleb and I held hands and took time to smooch and grope, to be silly and love- and it feels so good!
So, why am I sharing, possibly over-sharing? It's important for me to have this as a reminder. To remember, and learn from and maybe just maybe there's something here for everyone. To take time for our loved ones and friends and to place effort into those relationships, and to be vocal and free with your love. For I believe in love, what is life without it.