Monday, February 23, 2015

Ramblings of a Scared Heart



If I thought that Thursday was a rough day, I was about to be given a serious lesson in perspective. 

I woke up on Friday morning, feeling lighter. My demeanor back to it's sunny, happy self. There was freezing rain coming down outside, slowly hitting our tin roof and bouncing and bumping it's way to the cold ground beneath. It was a stay in your pajamas and snuggle kind of day. A day that whispers gently for you to be still, slow way down and savor in it's ease. So that's just what we did. . .

and then in a brief moment it shifted. 

Suddenly I found myself on the phone with an ER doctor telling me he was with my dad- who was, I would find out, in the midst of a major heart attack. Helicopters weren't flying due to weather so they would be rushing him to Little Rock ASAP.

I couldn't make sense of it. My Dad? My Dad? It wasn't feasible- he is the epitome of health. He is my rock and I am his baby girl, how could this be happening.

To say that it was a whirlwind from that moment on would be a gross understatement, yet somehow intertwined thru it seamlessly was also a great sense of peace. Everyone came together, we claimed our roles and we made it. He is doing so much better, and I think we can all say  that we are grateful it happened. Now we are aware of his hearts shortcomings and will have a much better chance of prevention in the future.

Things are still a little crazy right now, and my hands are a bit full at the moment,  but even in this- I feel so wholly blessed. My Dad is going to be ok. My husband is completely and unbelievably the love of my life- always strong, always stable, doing everything that can possibly be done to make it easier on us all. My best friend drove three hours to pick me up by eight in the morning. She drove me to the hospital and stayed with me and my dad until family could get there that afternoon- I can't say that I was surprised, that's who she is, but I was honored. And then there were my beautiful kiddos- untouched by sadness and fear, always thinking about themselves in the most comforting of ways. They have a skill of carrying normalcy with them, pulling everything back down to reality- a trait I have never been more thankful for. 

It's the unknown of incidents like this that leave everyone  coming together- grasping for the ones you love. It leads to more smooches and tighter hugs and has an inherent way of breaking down walls that sadly, have been built as we've grown up. 

Anyway, I'm not sure how to end this- It was just an account for me to remember, a place to seek the good, and also to tell you all where I've been. You, my friends, have come to mean so much to me and your prayers and support would be invaluable.

p.s.- I have not taken any pictures in days, my mind is not really kicking out the creativity and I have no post at the ready- so if there is a topic that intrigues you or a question you would like answered, leave it in the comments- and if given a free moment this week, I can work from there.     




36 comments :

  1. oh chelsea! i am continuously amazed/inspired by your positivity, which always shines through. you and your family are all such strong spirits! my heart and thoughts are with you, sweet friend. xo

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    1. Thank you so much- that means the world! I'm thrilled he is doing better and hopeful that it won't happen again.

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  2. Oh I am so sorry to hear about everything that happened this weekend. You are so strong to look at it the way that you are. What a blessing that he pulled through and is doing better! Sometimes a wonderful husband and best friend can make all of the difference. And you are so right that sometimes you need children to do exactly what they do best... keep some normalcy in the situation. You are in my prayers!

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    1. They are incredible at forcing routine! My little Isaac was scheduled for his special night on Friday, and he could not understand why he wasn't getting it. So even though we got home from the hospital at midnight, we still let him climb in bed with snacks and watch looney toons to make up for it. It was actually a great way to cap off the day and I was so thankful!

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  3. Glad that things are on the upswing. Sounds tough!

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  4. What a beautifully written post. I've had a similar experience to this so could relate wholeheartedly. I'm so glad your dad is doing better now!

    Carly x

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  5. I am so sorry you went through this, but glad your dad is okay!!

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  6. Thoughts are with you and your dad today!! Nothing is worse than that swooping dread when someone you love is in danger. I've worked at the ER before and I'll never forget the terror, battling hope, on every single face. So glad all is well!

    Zanna

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  7. Thinking of you, your dad and your family. xo

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  8. Oh my goodness! I'm so glad you get to enjoy more time with your dad. I will say a prayer tonight for you and your family!

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  9. I am so sorry! I know that had to be so scary. Praying for you guys and your dad and his recovery. Thankful that you were able to be there with him and I love your way of documenting this and finding the good in it.
    Speaking of topics to write about, your dad would make an interesting one;) I've never met him, but have heard many a tale. I've always wanted to know more about him and wish I had made a trek out to visit him before we moved.

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  10. I am very sorry about your dad. That is a phone call I know I would not want to receive. I'm glad yor kids were ok. You never know how they'll handle things. I hope it gets better. Your best friend sounds like a keeper!

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  11. Such a scary, scary thing. I'm so sorry about your dad- but soooo relieved to hear he's doing better and will be okay. Thinking of you!

    -Ashley
    Le Stylo Rouge

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  12. Oh no! Sounds like you had an emotional roller coaster weekend. Glad you have peace and things are good now. Sounds like your best friend is a keeper!

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  13. Awe......praying for you and your sweet family

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  14. Oh Chelsea, I am so, so glad he is OK. Thinking of you. Sending you all the positive energy I can muster. (Thank goodness for people rallying in times of need).....love to you all, Helen xxxx

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  15. I'll be keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers. I'm so happy to hear your dad was able to pull through and is doing better!

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  16. Oh you poor thing Chelsea! I am so glad your dad is doing better - what a scary thing to happen and I can't imagine how you must be feeling right now. Thinking of you lovely. xx

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  17. Great post Chelsea. Well written in artistic prose with emotion and feeling. We continue to pray for Barry and all. Blessing to you all.

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  18. I'm so glad that your dad is doing better - I hope his road to recovery only continues, smooth and safe. Thinking of you guys and sending lots of positive thoughts.

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  19. I am so sorry to hear about your dad love, how scary! Glad to hear he is recovering but I'll keep him in my prayers!

    xo

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  20. Creative CountrysideFebruary 24, 2015 at 11:39 AM

    So sorry to hear your news, it's agonising to go through something like this but I'm glad things have improved and you have loved ones around you. Thinking of you xx

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  21. oh sweet girl, my heart goes out to you and your family. what a blessing to have such a wonderful relationship with your dad though. also, the threads of love in this post - your best friend, your husband, the bit about how everyone came together and claimed their roles - it really does show you an undercurrent of love in a hard situation. i'll be praying for you <3

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  22. It was so interesting to
    read your posts and also I’d like to say that you have beautiful photos!

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  23. Chelsea! I was really worried when I read your Instagram. So glad to hear that your Dad is better. My boyfriend's dad also has cardial problems and it can be very scary. But I know you'll take good care of him! I wish you and your family the best! xo

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  24. I'm so glad that your dad is okay- I feel like everything would just tip over if I saw my pops in that kind of state. That's the man you look up to your whole life; I can't even imagine how it felt when you first heard the news. But I seriously got goosebumps hearing how everyone came together for you. From your best friend to your husband, you have some good people in your life. Good, wonderful people.

    xo Marlen
    Messages on a Napkin

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  25. It's so lucky to have the support of your husband during this time - he's such a gem and so are you! I wish your dad a speedy recovery.. mine fell ill about 2 years ago with the worst possible case of TB and it was awful... so all of my thoughts, prayers and strength is being sent your way during this time xx


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  26. Thinking of your dad and you and your family as he heals. You're in my prayers. xxx

    lovejoanna.com

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  27. Oh I'm so sorry. What a hard weekend. It is amazing how people come together in times of strife. I agree that that is the silver lining in these situations. My family has had it rough for what seems like years. Medical bills, health issues, accidents, broken appliances.. all just piling up. A few weeks ago my mom came home to a flooded basement. A basement full of closets and cardboard boxes packed to be moved across the country. We spent several days over there helping to empty the basement, tear down the sheetrock walls, throw away so many things that had been lovingly packed up and then ruined. It ended up being good timing, they were able to pack up more quickly, get rid of a lot of excess... but it was still horrible. The next week my dad was in a bad car accident. His car was totaled but he was miraculously fine. Now they are down to one car, and my mom has health problems. I've been running them meals, watching my youngest sister, and taking them prescriptions as needed. But it has been a rough time for quite a while. I can definitely identify with how it can make you feel close to your loved ones and glad that everyone tries hard to take their place and pitch in. I'm so glad that your dad is ok! :) XO -Alexandra

    Simply Alexandra: My Favorite Things

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  28. I am so sorry to hear this! I can, crazily enough, relate. Usually I would write, "I can only imagine", but actually, I CAN imagine (if you have time to read...http://www.simplycomplexmom.com/unforgotten/). I am so glad to hear that your father is okay. Kids are amazing. So totally resilient. And WOW, how families pull together in the midst of potential hardship and tragedy. It really sheds light on who is really with you on this crazy rollercoaster of a ride called "life". Blessings and prayers to you and your beautiful family <3

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  29. I'm so sorry to hear about your dad :( that is so scary when things like that happen! I pray things will be alright for you and your family at this time!

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  30. I'm so very sorry to hear about your dad Chelsea, but am so happy for the happy outcome and how well you are surrounded. You all are in my prayers.

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  31. Oh Chelsea, I'm so sorry! I kind of took a break from the internet last week and I missed this post... I'm so glad to hear your dad is doing better, friend! Prayers to you for lots of comfort, recovery for your Dad, and so much grace!

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  32. I was on vacation all week & just read this! I'm so sorry. I'm glad your father is doing better, praying for you & your family.

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